i have never been on such a rollercoater of emotions before. it's gone beyond 'good days' and 'bad days'.... it's more moment to moment... from full-on excitement to heart-ache.
now, i admit to being emotional. but this is something else completely.
and 'rollercoaster' isn't even a good analogy... sure there's ups and downs, but it has a definite end (2 minutes and 32 seconds for the Gemini) AND you often want to go back and do it again. No, we're not talkin' 'rollercoaster' here.... it's more like... well, being stranded in the middle of the ocean on a raft with heavy waves... some that could knock you over... and now, it feels like my raft has sprung a leak...
those 'things' that you say to help you through, just don't seem to be enough. knowing that others are struggling w/ deeper, more serious stuff, doesn't seem to help right now.
well, i'll just wait a moment... maybe this feeling will change soon.