I seem to be in a tug-o-war with myself, and perhaps even with God. I seem to jump from moments of amazing peace and hope to times of frustration and doubt. I'm pulled between the two, back and forth, back and forth.
As i look around me and at these swings, so many questions pop up. So many thoughts. The biggest of the is wondering, seeking God's will in this ebb and flow. Sometimes i think i understand, and others i'm sure i'm more confused than ever. I sway between the two, back and forth, back and forth.
Through it all, i tightly grasp the rope, afraid to let go ... going back and forth, back and forth.
Then i think... what if i just let go?
and how do i? what does it mean to let go?